[cor_man257]

I feel like my entire life is on pause. Im stuck doing something thats pointless that I have no control over. Far away from everything I love and hold dear. While at home everyone moves on with life. They go out with friends. They argue over the color of siding for the house. They bitch about picking up clothes from the floor. and about rumors and stupid drama.

Right now it would make me so happy to be able to argue about the color of siding, or bitch about dirty laundry, or get caught up in some petty argument. Itd make me so happy I'd cry. Im missing so much. Ive been with my girl a year tomorrow. A year. What the FRAG am I doing with my life in some craphole country wasting my time? what kind of valor, or courage is this? The only fight here is the one against my own mind and the thoughts that run rampid. Ive only been here since the beginning of june, and Ive had the scare of a child at home while Im not there, the scare of losing my fiancee over stupid things, not speaking to my parents. and having a brother that resents me. What is so noble and so great about being here, away from everything I love? What does this sacrifice of a year of my life gain anyone? What good comes of it? Am I helping some hodji FRAG somehow? Even if I am why should I care? Ive mapped out how my whole life could play out. like 4 different ways. Im to young to have this much bull crap in my head.

I just miss home I guess. I dont know... I dont know. I gotta get some rest in alittle bit. Im hoping someone gets on skype. Im on pause while everything else continues. I dont get a choice, and I dont know how to think act of feel about it.

[blackcelldrumr15]

Hang in there bro, while you might not like being there, there are people back here that still support you to the end. I'm behind you 110% and don't ever think there aren't a million others just like me.

Things will work out for the best in the end, no matter what that means. Just take things as they come and try your best to keep your head up, and try to keep in contact with your loved ones as much as you can.

Thank you for serving. And for giving up a big part of your life to serve this country.

[Dark Shadow Hunter]

I kinda know how you are feeling cor_man. Hang in there. You will be home before you know it. Just remember to turn to your battle buddies when you get down. While their situation may not be 100% exactly like yours, they can help you get through it. They are missing their loved ones and questioning their purpose over there also.

Just remember you are one hooah mike foxtrot because you answered a call no one else would.

[MurderDeathKill]

cor_man257, on 05 August 2010 - 12:08 PM, said:

What is so noble and so great about being here, away from everything I love?

You just answered your own question, buddy. If it felt good, it wouldn't be noble. But believe it right now or not, you're making a difference. So is everyone else, just like you, who'd rather be somewhere else besides there. Keep it up. You got this.

[CptObvious]

MurderDeathKill, on 05 August 2010 - 04:16 PM, said:

You just answered your own question, buddy. If it felt good, it wouldn't be noble. But believe it right now or not, you're making a difference. So is everyone else, just like you, who'd rather be somewhere else besides there. Keep it up. You got this.

What this guy said.

Sometimes ya have to trudge through it. I'm thousands of miles away from my girl too and its a PAIN in the BUTT. Big time. Just had a huge blow up over the past 24hrs, but patience patched it up. Patience and determination will get you through anything.

[I.K.E.]

When I'm down and stressed, I pray. Just a suggestion.

And thanks. Guys like you make that possible.

[blackcelldrumr15]

I.K.E., on 06 August 2010 - 12:27 AM, said:

When I'm down and stressed, I pray. Just a suggestion.

And thanks. Guys like you make that possible.

I second this.

Thank you.

[PistolWhipped]

While the others have covered the field nicely, I will be the douche bag here.

This is what you signed up for.

Welcome to deployment. It sounded great when the recruiter pitched it, going overseas to help people and protect your nation. Bet he forgot to mention the eating another one oft those crappy omelet MREs out of the back of a Jeep while you can't see your family for the next year.

We appreciate it dude.

This post has been edited by PistolWhipped: 05 August 2010 - 10:59 PM